Revelations
I didn’t know what I didn’t know…until I did
No one ever told me that in a cluttered room scattered with poems half-hatched, barely breathing, I would be soothed by the wind rattling the windows.
No one told me I would get high on Anna Akhmatova and Andrew Marvell, or that seeing Adrienne Rich in her later years reading at MIT would bring me such devastating joy. No one told me that poetry would earn me a living (it doesn’t), but it has certainly earned me a life.
No one ever told me that love is love is love, though Gertrude did say a rose is a rose is a rose, a revelation! No one told me I would find home where I was taught I’d be damned. That I would get to be a wife and have a wife!
No one ever told me I’d have no faith in bulbs and that I would be the doubting Thomas of gardeners, that I wouldn’t believe that the ungainly Amaryllis bulb could produce her red-velvety yaw of a blossom…until she did.
Nobody ever warned me about the art of losing, which I have had to practice, but I hope to never have to master.
No one told me that Faith hasn’t a leg to stand on. And Hope, that thing with Emily’s feathers, has gone the way of predictable weather. And Charity? Well it is a data-driven fact that the have-nots give to others in greater measure than the haves.
Then one day I took my jaded self to see the Jade Buddha, several stories high that traveled from Thailand to a Worcester, Mass. parking lot a stone’s throw from car-dealership-row in a city once touted as “The Paris of the 80s” yet more aptly referred to as “Wormtown.”
To this temporary temple came devotees of all ages to honor with humble offerings of what they had. And in the presence of such faith that no one could have convinced me existed, I learned to trust the seed and the bulb and the kernel of love that is left when all else fails.
Copyright 2026 Emily Ferrara
Bio:
Emily Ferrara is the author of The Alchemy of Grief, which won the Bordighera Poetry Prize and was published in a bilingual edition (English and Italian) by Bordighera Press. She lives in Lowell, MA with her wife and their 9-year-old Snorkie.
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