Erica Goss

 Where She Belongs
  
  
 I pace the denuded streets, counting 
 the humans who scurry by, their little skull 
 faces aglow. Mornings are light-struck & female. 
 Afternoons jumbled & loose. I try to remember
 why I decided to quit drinking. That last
 drink is like a tattoo: its outline grows fainter 
 with time but never completely fades. The body 
 is dazzling in its determination, in its daily
 reminders plucked from memory’s most
 trafficked thruways: the hour before dinner,
 when wine blurred the coming night; then 
 the blessed blackout of sleep. But this year 
 I’m neither sleeping nor awake. The mirror reveals 
 my sagging nudity. I’m quietly shocked. The body’s 
 deterioration: a road map of scars and lovers. 
 No cameras click, although I feel the whole 
 world watching. Once, pregnant, I was cajoled 
 into posing, my figure distorted and malleable.
 Never before had I felt so vigilant, so tenacious,
 my eyes ablaze with coming motherhood.
 Now excavation is my purpose. Instead of drinking,
 I dig. I’m learning to keep my spine straight, 
 but it’s not easy. My world, fenced-in & square-edged, 
 is still gentle. I don’t think about what’s past, present 
 or oncoming. No matter what, people come first.
  
  
 Copyright 2021 by Erica Goss 

Author’s Statement:

My poem, titled “Where She Belongs,” is made up of phrases and words from two of my poems: “Emerald City” and “To the Border Guard Who Found Aylan Kurdi.” The article I used is about the artist Alice Neel, from the New York Times’ arts section on Friday, April 2, 2021.

Bio:

Erica Goss served as Poet Laureate of Los Gatos, CA from 2013-2016. Recent and upcoming publications include Creative Nonfiction, North Dakota Quarterly, Spillway, A-Minor, Redactions, Consequence, Slant, The Sunlight Press, The Pedestal, San Pedro River Review, and Critical Read. She is the founder of Girls’ Voices Matter, an arts education program for teen girls.

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  1. Joan Dobbie says:

    Erica, your poem feels honest and the lines blend together just right. I’m not sure who the “I”, the narrator is, but I was touched reading it.

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